Just Being

Working on trying to be mindful and in the moment and not get too attached. It's a lifelong work in progress in which no one totally masters. So far I am just being, just being in the moment. It is something hard to do in this world. This world is pretty fucked up with wars, diseases, toxic people and situations. How we look at and treat each other ie too much verbal, physical and emotional violence that is accepted. I have to center myself at times and keep some things at a distance. Putting myself first. <end of mental and soul speak>

I have been highly enjoying The Thrilling Adventure Hours podcast of Beyond Belief with Padgett Brewster and Paul F Tompkins as Sadie and Frank Doyle who like to drink and see ghosts. Hysterical radio time hour lol HIGHLY recommend. They have several other serials, but Beyond Belief is my fave. It's been around for awhile now. (yeah I am slowly catching on things that I want to)

Two more days and I start my novel for NaNoWri...TWO DAYS!!!! The first day I can't even start so I am freaking out. I also need to remind myself that it does not need to complete or polished, just written and December can be edit mode. Even if I don't finish with 50,000 words, at least something will be written and I can mark it off my Quest List.

Lately, been extremely missing my Bailey girl. Very vivid dreams, things she would have done or little things that remind me of her. Her lovable quirks. Hole in heart seems bigger the past few weeks, emotions just below the surface. Just the thought and I want to break down. I have decided that next year I will put a down payment for another wire haired doxie via Porth Kennels. It's hard to find any, especially a female at rescues.

Last weekend saw Marvel Live and was FUCKING AMAZEBALLS!!!!! Find where it will be playing near you and GO!!!!!!!!!!!!