GRATEFUL

I am feeling very thankful and blessed as of late. I had a wonderful weekend with friends and new friends. Saturday, I saw a faboo rendition of the play The Mystery of Irma Vep. It was uber cold, rainy, icy, my cab never showed and I had to drive and a shit ton of people were downtown to see Garth Brooks play back to back. Despite the craziness and the at first glance of this could be a dreadful evening, it wasn't. All that swirling made it an interesting evening that was actually fun. It serves as a reminder that at first glance things may not be as they seem or how we want/wish to see them.

Sunday, friends from Cincy that I don't get to see often came down for a show. We saw The Devil Makes Three and then headed to another showcase to see Buffalo Wabs and the Price Hill Hustle. Again, it was an interesting night. I forgot tickets, so we had to go back and one friend did not get hers before they sold out. We laughed and had a good time anyway. It was a roll with kind of evening. What are ya gonna do. Just enjoy it.

I have not been a Facebook for a while. Been experimenting with not looking at it over the weekend and to be in the moment. We get so ingrained and stuck in our head that we need to have our phone in our hands checking status's etc every ten minutes. This habit makes us hurry, gives us ADHD, we want things fast, hurry, NOW!!!! We've become a fast, disposable society. Eveything is instanteous. I just want to slow that down a bit.

Well, I picked the wrong weekend to stop looking at status's because dear friends had things happen to them. One set could have been killed in a wreck over Halloween night and another friend could have lost her dog to a hit a run. I am very relieved to say the least, that all are ok despite injuries. It all could have been much worse. It scared me that I may have lost friends to a careless action and how that would affect their families. It scared me that my friend may have lost her doggie. I know what it is like to see your dog be run over. I know what it is like to lose that furry life. The emotions are overwhelming. I am very thankful and humbled by my own small existance, how the web of life and death weaves thru it and how precious it and everyone is.

Life is very fleeting and things do happen beyond our control. As humans, we like to control the outcomes of things and get frustrated when we can't, even if the "controlling" is for the best and with the best intentions. We need to let go, because things will take place and happen as they should and need to and will. Things need to happen, people need to learn, life needs to ebb on. We just need to be in the flow of it and allow ourselves to be carried where it takes us. Only we are allowed to decide how we are going to respond to it and incorporate it into our lives. We decide what we are going to keep, get rid of, accept, settle for, say no to, say yes to, who to let in, who to let out. Everyone has their own journey, we can only help and guide along the way for only so long and much. The outcome and consequences of our own actions and choices are ours to make and live with.

I am choosing myself for once. I am saying no to things that I am fed up with. I am sayiing yes to me.

Life is too short and precious people. Do what you need to do and do it with love. Remind those you care about that you love them, thank them for being in your life and learning from them.